Well, I finished my projected word count for Camp NaNo. Hooray!
Or more, hooray-ish.
I’m not as thrilled this time as for the “real” NaNo in November, for two reasons. I knew I’d be busier this month than I was last November, so I set a lower goal (because you can do that at Camp) of only 20,000 words. That’s a lot less than 50,000 words in one month, so it’s just not as much of an accomplishment to finish it. Still, I probably would not have written that many words on my novel this month if I hadn’t participated in Camp, so it’s still a good thing.
The second reason weighs even heavier on me. I had estimated that I had ten more chapters to write before the end of the book, and that each would take about 2,000 words on average. So the theory was, write 20,000 words and voila, completed draft!
Alas, I am still not done. The outline I’m working from is a bit rough, and as it developed over this month, it needed more or longer scenes. I think it’s working, so that’s very good!
But I’m disappointed that it’s not done.
Worse, even if I finish these last few chapters, what I’ve been working on in the last act means I’ll have to go back and add several new or revised scenes early on, to better lead up to where some of the plot threads go.
SIGH. WALLOW. WHINE.
(Repeat as required.)
To make things even more worse, a few projects are ramping up at work, meaning it will be increasingly difficult to devote time to the novel in the coming months.
I know it’s strange to start with a Winner’s Certificate and yet still be frustrated. But I am frustrated. I’m feeling like this story is wriggling out from between my fingers. I worry that I’ll never get one complete draft, with a full set of chapters that actually lead, one from the other, to create a complete story.
Can I get some support, writer friends? Have you been here? How did you climb back out of this funk? How do you finish that stupid book? Is there a magic story-finishing wand you’re hiding under your desk? (If so, message me, we can talk.)
And most importantly:
DOES IT GET BETTER?